Jess

My beloved Jess came into my life 11 years ago when I needed it most. She helped me to bear the pain of grief. She taught me that animals have souls, they have emotions and intelligence. She had the gentlest, most pure soul. She spoke with her brown, expressive eyes and gave so much unconditional love.  A cuddle, a play with a ball or rope was what she loved. I had never known such a giving, unselfish, pure love.

In her last week she was in the vets every day for tests and treatment and she begged me not to leave her, it was heartbreaking for her and for me. When it was clear that she wasn't going to recover, I knew that I couldn't let her suffer any longer. I had to accept that I had to let her go.

I could not take her back to the vets because she would think that I was going to leave her again and I wanted her final moments to be peaceful and calm.

Luckily I was given Mark's name and number. He was so supportive, gentle and calm. I couldn't have wished for a more fitting goodbye. I got a lovely card and paw print.

I don't know how long this pain will last but I delay coming home because I miss that wonderful greeting from Jess so much.